This moment is a difficult one. I’ve been bitten by bed bugs which has made my entire body itch. It’s maddening, and as always the ailments of the body are affecting the mind. Steve has also realised he has to go to America for five weeks to shoot Continuum. I was hoping it’d be three. I know it’s not long but today it feels like it and I can’t decide what I’m going to do while he’s gone. I was going to do a month-long yoga course but I can’t find one. Two of my friends were going to come visit but they can’t anymore.
There are many things I could do, so many places I could go, but I’m in that abhorrent place where because one thing hasn’t gone the way I wanted, everything else seems unsatisfactory. It’s an ugly emotion but one I’m familiar with. It’s something I want to get better at, and one of the things this trip is about. Read more